Last night, my husband took the boys out to visit their grandparents and great-grandmother for four hours so that I could have a “break.” I used this time to put away the four or five mountains of clean laundry that had been waiting in baskets for the last few weeks, put another 2 loads in, pulled clothes that don’t fit any longer from the boys’ closet, unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher, cooked a complete healthy dinner and ate it without taking a break to hold or feed someone else, and completed my second day of Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred. Oh- and I laid down, by myself, with my eyes closed, for half an hour. I was by myself for four hours, and got more done than I have in the last two weeks.
The problem is this: I don’t want to work. In my ideal world, I would be able to live by Patricia Clafford’s quote, “ The work will wait while you show the child the rainbow, but the rainbow won’t wait while you do the work.” Unfortunately however, the work really won’t wait. It will pile up, like mountains of laundry and make me incredibly anxious and unhappy. Because even though I don’t want to work, I don’t like living in the stressful chaos that procrastination brings. Then, I’m so busy worrying about how I’m going to get everything done that I haven’t kept up with, that I don’t even “see the rainbow” that I’m supposedly trying to show my kids. Ever wrestle with your toddler and the whole time think that bedtime can’t come quickly enough so that you can get a pile of papers graded or put the dishes away? Yeah, me too. Not a good feeling.
The fortunate thing for me is that I am still on my maternity leave, and have had significantly more time at home than I normally do as a teacher. But obviously, there isn’t much I can get done with my two little babes running around, and honestly, I’m glad I haven’t prioritized work over my playtime with them.
In a few weeks, I’ll be going back to work. I want to be a mom first, a teacher second, and a housekeeper third… Actually, I don’t want to be a housekeeper… but I will … I want to be organized, productive, energized, and joyful.
Please help! Leave your superhuman secrets that maximize organization, efficiency, energy, and joy in the comments!