I have a burning desire to be a little wild. If you saw me, you wouldn’t believe it, because it doesn’t even look like I’m even trying to be fashionable or creative when it comes to appearances.

Under this very boring, flat and blah hairdo, unstyled outfit, and cluelessly applied makeup is a mom that would love to BUST OUT. There will always be this huge part of me that wants to do this:

THIS. A girl, er, boring mom can dream, right? Photo Credit: http://instagram.com/p/pJaT4UBHJp/

THIS. A girl, er, boring mom can dream, right? Source: http://instagram.com/p/pJaT4UBHJp/

I love it. I love the colors. I loyally follow this woman’s Instagram account, eating up daring, inspired hairstyles and colors. While we’re at it, I really, really want super short or asymmetrical cut hair. Something cool. I want more tattoos. I’d love to be bold enough for more visible art. I think it can look so pretty and creative. I have a rockabilly girl inside just dying to get out. I’d love to head out the door to work like this – hair, ink, and all.

I mean, come on, really. Look how happy she is. Photo credit: http://www.pinterest.com/pin/446700856760707081/

I mean, come on, now. Look how happy she is. Photo credit: http://www.pinterest.com/pin/446700856760707081/

There are several things that keep me from chucking it all and going for it:
*My job
*My husband
*Everyone at my daughter’s daycare
*Everyone in my town
*And, well, I suppose … ME.

Photo Credit: http://99tattoodesigns.net/rockabilly-tattoo/

Photo Credit: http://tinyurl.com/p8gojmx

I genuinely believe that you need the confidence to back it up or it just doesn’t look quite right. And in a world where I would be the only person I know rocking pink and green hair, I definitely wouldn’t have that confidence. Maybe I’m too shy to have people show me that much attention, really. Or maybe I’m too thin skinned to be open to criticism. Maybe I just care too much what people think of me. But should I? I mean, they’re just clothes. I wish I didn’t feel like I had to change careers in order to rock that incredible top from Forever 21 41.

Oh, and it’s not about looking young. Not at all. Because I don’t believe interesting fashion choices make you look young, nor do I necessarily believe that these bold women are trying to look like kids. It’s just about being able to put on something creative and fun, taking a risk. Nothing makes me happier than sporting bright colors or wearing cheap, silly, plastic jewelry. I pile on jelly bracelets fairly often, only to take them off before I leave the house for work, thinking, “Oh, stop it, Tara. You can’t wear this to work.” My three year old daughter is a big fan of my styling choices, however.

I always think, “Well, if I lived in New York City, I would definitely wear what I wanted.” Or, “If I was a hairstylist / artist / fill-in-the-blank-with-someone-artistic-and-cool I could totally pull it off.” But is this true? I have no idea.

But what I do know is that the older I get, the bolder I get. I just wish I could just pull the trigger and make the leap. Speaking of age, I’m so inspired by these women:

 

I often wonder how many other women there are that are just itching to follow their hearts when it comes to breaking rules and ditching worries about what others may think of them. This doesn’t necessarily need to mean making exciting hair color choices or pairing stripes with dots, either. It could just mean stepping outside of the comfort zone. Something tells me that I’m not alone.

 

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