Becoming a mom has made me think about my own mortality.
How is it having a baby changes so much in your life?
Since my little man was born I have had this weird feeling of “what if something goes wrong and I die” A FEAR of leaving him alone! Okay I know he wouldn’t technically be alone but the fear is real nonetheless. It seems morbid but I can not seem to shake it. I have even begun to think about writing a will and thinking about who I would want to guide over his life if his Dad and I were to both leave this earth.
Sometimes it grips me when I am driving home from work or when I am sitting rocking him to sleep. 
- Will he know how much I utterly Love him!
- Will he grow to be a Good, Strong, Honest, Respectful, Loving man?
We have finally Weaned! ~ My little man has just turned 17 months and we have been slowing down and cutting back for the past few months. I thought we would stop at a year but it worked for us so I kept going. But when your little one can point and demand “Mulk” and say boobie well yeah it felt like we were approaching the end – plus lets face it he has 14 teeth now including 4 of those are molars. So we had already widdled down to nursing only in the morning and before bed and two weeks before Christmas I cut out the morning feeding. I think losing that morning nursing session was harder on me then him – my poor breasts were sore at work and so fill by the time the evening feeding rolled around, but my body adjusted and I was planning for the next hurdle, cutting out the night feeding. 


















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