This year I’m resolving not to have a long list of resolutions…just one. In 2014, I want to stop rushing, and start savoring the moment.
Last year, I felt that I spent so much time planning, organizing, scheduling, and running around that when I had a few moments to actually enjoy the time that I had, I was so exhausted that all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and take a nap.
Granted, it was a crazy year – my father-in-law passed away in March after a long illness. We spent the first few months of the year travelling up to New Hampshire to spend time with him before he died, and many weekends after he passed helping my mother-in-law pick up the pieces of her life. Participating in the end stages of his life reminded me that life is short and goes by far too quickly…and that we should enjoy each moment. My own step-dad has a little slogan that he writes on birthday cards and other correspondence, “Enjoy each breath,” and while it was the subject of lots of eye-rolling in the past, I finally get it.
In November, I was rushing to clean up the house in the morning before work when I took a tumble down the basement steps, tearing my meniscus (the padding in my knee joint) and ACL tendon in my knee. After a few months of physical therapy, I am just able to get back to a slow jog and I do have some limited range of motion due to the meniscus tear that will require surgery in the spring, followed by another few months of PT. Throughout this ordeal, I’ve woken up to the fact that I am, indeed a middle aged woman (even though mentally, I still FEEL the same as I did 20 years ago). I am again reminded to slow down. My body is aging and I do need to give myself some TLC and make sure that I am taking the time to exercise, eat right, and take calcium, vitamin D, and most importantly, get adequate rest. Hopefully, these old’ish bones will have a long, healthy life ahead of them.
As a mom, I feel like I am always in motion. I wake up to pack lunch, make breakfast and get my son off to school, and get to work. In the afternoon, I pick him up and run him to sports practice and music lessons before getting dinner on the table and taking care of whatever else comes up in the evenings. While there’s no antidote for the delicate balance that is motherhood – and it only seems to accelerate as kids get older – there is an opportunity to enjoy the ride and savor the moment. Spending time with your kids is a privilege and before you know it, they’re going to want to spend more time with their friends than with you.
So this year, I intend to slow down, enjoy the moment, and take more time just to ‘be’. The laundry can wait.