My sweet Caroline,
It’s the night before your fifth birthday and I’m laying in bed thinking about how lucky I am to be the one who gets to be your mom. I’m not sure where these past five years have gone, but I do know that they have been the best five years of my life. You are such a kind, smart, loving, energetic, funny, empathetic little girl. You make me so proud every day.
On this night five years ago your daddy and I went out for burgers. We talked about how excited we were to finally meet you, hold you, kiss you. We loved you so much already and had never even met you yet! Isn’t that funny? It’s what happens when you become a mommy. You fall head over heels in love.
That’s exactly what happened to me. You’ll understand what I mean when you have children of your own someday.
As soon as I knew you were in my belly there was nothing I wouldn’t do to protect you and keep you safe. Now you’re turning five (I still can’t even wrap my head around it) and I still feel that way. I always will, too. You’ll always be my baby no matter how grown up you are.
Our first night together was so special. Even though I was so exhausted I couldn’t close my eyes. I didn’t even want to blink. I just wanted to hold you and watch you while you slept; stare at your cute button nose, your adorable chunky cheeks, the sweet fuzzy hair on your head.
I want to thank you. Thank you for making me a mom. Thank you for all of the smiles you bring to our faces each and every day. Thank you for your laughter, the adorable stories you share, your smiles that brighten even the cloudiest days, and for showing me what true love is. Thank you for forgiving me for the times I’ve made mistakes. Nothing melts my heart more than your sweet hugs while you say “it’s ok mama.” You make me want to be a better human being; someone who you can look up to.
I will always support you.
So as you blow out your five birthday candles and make a wish, I’ll be making one too. Although they say that telling people what you wish for means it won’t come true, I’m going to share it with you. My wish is for time to just slow down a bit more because I want to savor every day, hour, minute with you.
Happy birthday my girl.