So I have to be honest. This is not the blog post that I’ve been working on for the past two days. The post I had been working on was actually about something that happened about two weeks ago and that I had been hemming and hawing about whether I should write about it. I drafted the post but wasn’t in love with it. The more I wrote, the more conflicted I started to get. I even had a friend take a look at my draft last night just to get some input on where I was headed (thanks Stacy!) but even after we discussed what I had, I still wasn’t sure.
Figured I would sleep on it – that always helps right? Well not exactly. As I was running around this morning getting the kids ready, last min prep for a house showing today (fingers crossed) and getting myself ready for work I decided that since I was still so up in the air about what I had written that I would just put it on the back burner for now. (Side note: it’s nothing bad – just something that was odd and still not sure how I feel about it). Which of course left me in a little bit of a pickle for what I would actually write for today (yeah no pressure). Told my husband that I was scratching what I had been working on for the past two days and started throwing out ideas – to which he responded “eh”…not exactly the reaction I was hoping to receive.
Then it dawned on me. I wasn’t too crazy about any of the ideas either. They were ok, but only “half-baked” ideas that I really didn’t have the time (or energy) to delve into further. So as I drove into work this morning I went through my normal routine of mentally making my daily “to-do” lists – which seemed longer than usual (a list for work, a list for home, write blog post, stuff for the weekend, upcoming important dates/events/appts., things to add to the shopping list, etc.) and that’s when it hit me: there was too much clutter. It’s not that I didn’t want to focus on a topic for my blog post, it’s that there was too much going on – too much clutter – for me to lock onto a single idea, love it, and then figure out what to do with it.
Let’s face it Ferris Bueller was right “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” (If you don’t know that quote OR that name – please for the love of all that is good in this world, GO WATCH “Ferris Bueller’s Day Off”!! Trust me, it will be worth your time!)
Being a type “A” personality this won’t be easy for me but I need to make time to de-clutter me, to relax and let things go. As my mother likes to remind me “Is anyone really going to steal the dust in your house if you don’t clean today?!” I also realized that I need to learn to enjoy the moment more and the little “wins” that we receive each day.
With a daughter that turned five yesterday and twin boys that will turn three in November time seems to be flying away from me and if I truly want to enjoy this last summer before school officially starts this September, I really need to learn to not sweat the small stuff (please send good thoughts, prayers, whatever. This could be a long summer for me!!)