Author: christaallard

Change

I see the signs of summer’s end creeping into our daily routine. My daughter’s summer activities have tapered from a flood to a trickle as each one ends. I laugh at myself now, fearing at the beginning of summer that I was over scheduling my five year old; now I’m fretting about how to keep

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Mothering

Long days short years (more than a) Few tears Keep them close But at arms length Weak in the knees Or beg for strength Tight squeezes Pushing back Extreme connection (then the lack) Doing your best Doubting all Full heart Trust fall We carry them for a time But they’re within us for good The

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Baby face

It’s late, but my daughter isn’t feeling well and is having trouble sleeping. She’s got me pulled in close, playing with my ear as she always had, and I’m simultaneously basking in the snuggle and trying to avoid her germy breathing. Up close like this, I can still see in her face the little baby

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Mantra 2.0

Things have been a bit, well, tense around our house lately. Seemingly out of the blue my daughter’s behavior has been explosive – unpredictable and unprompted. She’ll lash out verbally and physically, launching us into a power struggle of me trying to put an end to the behavior while she does her best to show

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